Too many ups and downs

Well just when things were looking up, they went down, but I won't bore you with the details. My staph is better and finished my last pill last night. The eye is still a little black and the bump still there, but luckily nothing serious. It took me 2 weeks to completely clean moms kitchen.

I could use some prayers for money right now. We found a cute little cottage for $22,000, but can't seem to find a way to get the money to pay cash. It needs work, which we can do and it has a little apt in the back. The good news is, it's in the next block from our house in Crowley. If any of you come into some wealth and would like to loan us the money until I get my inheritance---that would be nice. Just kidding of course. I know that if God wants us to have it, He will show us the way. I could move back into our house and Al could move into the little one and I could get my life back. I want to craft so much and have the energy and the desire, but not the time. I will be leaving on the 7th and am so looking forward to a break.

I miss my computer and my friends here, because as it goes, except for my children, my aunts and a few cousins, you're all I have now. I made some mistakes with comments to my siblings and even though I called and apologized, I had my niece call and told me off. Seems apologies don't mean anything, even when my heart meant every word. I've been down this road before, but I am now taking a detour for my own sanity. They don't want to understand my bipolar, so I am labeled "mentally crazy". Tell it to the brain!

I hope everyone who is sick is getting better and prayers are being said for all of you that I know needs them.

I will be back after the 1st of May to pack, so I will have time to post some great finds and some of the beautiful flowers blooming in my dads garden. See you soon, Love and Hugs, Pat

Missing all of you

Thanks so much for all the prayers and comments. I am feeling so great. other than getting a staph infection and hitting my eye on mom's wooden trash bin---going in for a CT scan on Tuesday and taking some strong antibiodics for the infection. The knot on the head is still there and my eye was so black and my headaches haven't gone away. My left eye is very blurry even with my glasses on, so hopefully nothing bad----just a clumsy fool.

We are working on a plan for us to get the house and I have been busy cleaning cabinets and washing every thing in them. Mom's kitchen is huge, so there are lots of cabinets, but I only have 2 left, then working on the ceiling.

I am also working on getting internet service, but they only have dial up in the country for now, so it will have to do, since I don't come here often. I am enjoying the clean country air and have been getting up around 8am every morning and sitting outside with my coffee.

Your prayers are working so please keep them up. As soon as the garage sale is done, I will be having a huge craft room, but won't move anything until I get it painted. As of now, my bathroom is being used as a storage space for the things we are dividing. Since the new sewing machine walked away from dad's, I don't trust, which is not my nature.

I am leaving on the 8th for Vancouver, Wa to visit my daughter for 2 weeks and I am so excited, but will have to pack 2 sets of clothes as it's still cold there. Our weather here is crazy---temps in the mid 30s and highs of 80s. Not sure what to wear any more, so haven't packed away the winter clothes.

Well I am off to visit some blogs, so hope to see you all soon. Love and Hugs, Pat

Get me out of this Darkness

I pondered for a long time today about posting and then found a blog with a lady who is in despair and doesn't care about life anymore and it almost felt like she was writing about me. I am not going to give up on my dream of getting my parents home until the last ounce of breathe is gone from me. I go from anger to joy of thinking of living there permanently. My dream craft room is there and it's the only thing that is keeping me going, plus the prayers from people I have never met. If my dream fails, I am going to seperate myself from all the negative forces that incompass me at times. I know that I too can be negative, but I am always there for other people to help in any way I can, but when it's time for help, every one in my life is busy. It was a very difficult move and I have helped people pack and move so many times that I thought about going into the packing business.

I want to be happy again and smile like there is no tomorrow, but it isn't coming easy. I miss crafting because it always got me out of the darkness I felt at times. I miss my parents so much and thinking that their house may go to a stranger is heartening for me.

I am leaving again tonight to go back to their house and will miss all of you. Please don't forget me while I'm gone-lol. You have helped me through some bad times and the person I need most is always busy and I can understand to a point. I have never been too busy for those I love. I have often changed my plans to fit their needs, but never once have I gotten that from those I need.

I am excited about visiting my daughter in Vancouver, Wa, so if any of you live near, let me know---maybe you would like to join me on Main St. to tour some great little shops, including my daughters.

Will see you in about a week. Have a great week and I will check on you when I return. Love and Hugs, Pat