Monday, February 28, 2011

Missing my parents

I find myself missing my parents lately and I'm sure it has to do with the heart attack. Even though me and my mother had our differences, she was always there when I was sick. I've been doing a little crying lately and feeling sorry for myself and I know I need to stop the madness, but with my children so far away and my parents gone, it's very hard.

My sisters and every one around me are babying me and I don't' like that. I know what my body says to me when I am tired and I can't wait to see the cardiologist so I will know what I can and can't do. Maybe they will leave me alone and let me be.

All you sweet gals out there who have never had a heart attack, don't wait for some pain stabbing, heart wrenching pain and falling to the ground in extreme pain. I never had any of that. They do know that I was having the heart attack while in the hospital, because the heart enzymnes showed I was having a heart attack and I didn't feel anything except a headache, even my blood pressure was normal for a while, then it dropped to extremely low numbers and supposedly that is when the attack was occuring. I was lucky that I went to the ER for the headache, because it might have been too late to prevent damage to the heart muscle. I was very lucky that they started everything quickly and prevented any damage. So I beg of you to listen to your body and if something doesn't feel right, see your doctor right away or go to the ER. Now I totally understand why they call it the Silent Killer, because mine was very silent and a headache saved my life. Thank you all for listening to me and  hopefully I will soon be on the mend and doing things I was doing before. I am off the pitty pot and on a very strict diet, but the best thing I did for myself was to give up the smoking even though it wasn't much.
I hope your days are filled with rainbows and sunshine. It's time for spring to arrive and it feels like it here already with 77 degrees of beautiful weather and things starting to bloom. Love, hugs, and many blessings to all of you who visit. I love having visitors---as it brightens my day and fills my heart with love. Pat


Connie said...

Pat, cheer up, my sweet friend!! I wasn't particularly close to my mother but I did love her. She was a working mom and never stayed home with us. Makes a difference I tell ya. Please know that I think of you and try to get better, sugar.

The Urban Chic said...

Thank you sweet Connie for stopping by. I don't get on line very often as of late. My energy level is horrible and I'm fighting the depression with the help of My Lord and Savior and it's what is getting me through each day. I know it will take a while to heal, but sometimes, my patience is thin, so that's where Jesus comes in and helps me through each trial. Love Ya, Pat