Saturday, December 29, 2007

My dad has died


It is with great sorrow that I have to tell you that my dad passed away the day after Christmas. He wasn't feeling well and I wanted to take him to the hospital, but he refused, because his last words to me were, "I brought your mom to the hospital and look what happened to her, she died". Donnie and I were alone with him and he got up to take his medicine and collapsed in his bedroom. My son dialed 911 and instead of panicking, I immediately started CPR on him and got him breathing again. I think he lost the will to live because he missed my mom so much. The medics took over and they told my siblings and the doctor that I did a terrific job, but I just feel like I didn't do enough. I miss him so much and I was a daddy's girl. I had started moving to stay with him so he wouldn't be alone incase something like this happened. Right now, I just need your prayers for strength to go on, because the pain in my heart is awful. I don't have access to a computer there, so I don't know when I will return, but please keep us all in your prayers. It has only been 5 months since mom died and I wasn't over that, so the pain has doubled. When I am feeling better, I will explain a little more and tell you of the wonderful memories I will cherish about my dad. I hope you all have a Happy New Year. I was given the gift of telling my dad that I loved him before he died. Many hugs for all my blogger friends. Pat

28 comments:

FourSistersInACottage said...

((((OH MY SWEET FRIEND PAT))))
Hugs from me to you from across the miles.
I am sitting here crying because I cannot imagine the pain in your heart. I lost my Daddy a year ago and I am still not over it. But to lose both your Mom and Dad, oooo I cannot fathom it.
If there is ANYTHING I can do for you from here, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!!
There are no words for me to help with your pain so please know you will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Love you bunches my friend, Amy (Mom to the Four Sisters)

IsabellaCloset said...

My dear Pat, I am so so very sorry to hear the sad news about your Fathers passing. Amy (FourSistersInACottage) just emailed me to tell me. My heart goes out to you, I know your pain.
When my Father passed away just 2 months later my Mother then passed away too.. I was told this often happens. Sadly your Father probably did loose the will to live without your Mother. I wish I had words to comfort you. You, your Father and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs & love to you sweet friend ~Mary~

MaryB said...

Pat, I am so sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. If there is anything I can do, please just email me.
Hugs,
Mar

CONNIE W said...

I read about your loss on Mary's blog and wanted to extend my heartfelt sympathy to you. I pray that God's grace will keep you during this most sad time in your life. Connie W

Alison Gibbs said...

Pat I am so sorry for your loss. We have just last month been through the same thing with my father in law.
How wonderful that at least you got to say you loved him. So no regrets.
I will be thinking of you.
Take care.
Alison

Nora Lee said...

I am so sorry to hear of your fathers passing. My daddy died 12 years ago tomorrow, and it is a hard time of year for me as well. May God's peace and comfort be with you and your family.

Sandra
"Nora Lee's Nook"

SweetAnnee said...

Oh Pat!!!! I AM SOOOOOOOOO
sad for your loss..
I wish I could be there to give you
a hug and remind you your dad and
mom will always be alive in your mind
and heart.

I will pray for the peace of Christ
for you and yours.

Love in Hi.
deena

Joyce said...

Hi Pat,
I just read about your huge loss on Mary's blog today.
As I went to see your blog and took my FIRST look at it and saw your Daddy's photo I KNEW immediatly where you all were from. Because I'm just up the road and I know those big pots and could tell by the way your Daddy's was "stirring" you were Louisiana people!
I wanted to pass on my condolences to you and your family at this time.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers in the days ahead.
Be blessed,
Joyce M.

Monkey Giggles said...

Oh, I am truly sorry for your double loss. I am new here at your blog. There are no words I have. I will be in prayer for you!

Dolly said...

Pat I am so sorry for your loss!
You are in my thoughts and prayers!

Hugz, Dolly

Denise said...

I found you via Deena's blog... sorry for your loss..... I just cannot imagine the pain... I do believe that the Father God will pour out His mercy and grace in your time of grief...........

You will be in my prayers.......

Mary said...

Dear Pat, I am so very sorry for the loss of your Father. You and your family are in my thoughts
and Prayers. I lost my Dad on Dec.23
several years ago and I still miss him. It was good that you got to tell him you loved him.
Hugs and Prayers, Mary

Genevieve Olsen said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your parents. I will keep you in my prayers!

The Urban Chic said...

I came home for a few minutes to get some things and thought about posting. I can't thank everyone for the outpouring of prayers. Not sure when I can get back, but you will know that I will as soon as I can. I will miss all of you and I will catch up soon. Hugs, Pat

bj said...

Darling Pat, I am bj and I just wanted to say how sorry I am that you are going thru this valley now. I know you know that HE will never put more on us than we can bear but sometimes we think we are going to crumble. That is when our faith kicks in. NO ONE can go thru this much pain without HIM beside them and I pray that you will allow HIM to carry you!
My prayers go out to you and your family.
bj

mhd1032 said...

I feel your pain. I loss my Mom in April and my Dad in December 10 years ago. I still miss them very much,but I hope to be in heaven with them some day. "May God's love heal your sorrow, and may His peace replace your heatache with warm and loving memories"

Elizabeth said...

Hi Pat,
I feel for you. My dh and I have went through 28 deaths in less than 3 years.
Prayers and hugs,
Elizabeth

Lori said...

My deepest and heartfelt sympathy. Lori

Mary Isabella said...

I am sending to you my heartfelt prayers. I lost My younger and only brother and my dad and both of my husband parents in thr span of 2 years. I am and will continue to prat for you. Mary

Sweet Cottage Dreams said...

Dear Pat,
I cannot imagine what you are going through right now. To lose your sweet father and your mother so close in time is just terrible. My mother went through this with her parents. I pray that you find peace knowing that your parents are embracing each other again.

love to you,

Becky

IsabellaCloset said...

Pat, I just want you to know I keep think about you. You are in my prayers..
God bless you ~Mary~

Donetta said...

Dear Lady you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Donetta

Shelley said...

SO very sorry for your terrible loss. I pray for God to carry you at this time and give you the strength to walk on.

Blessings,Shelley

Kari & Kijsa said...

Our hearts and prayers are with you- what a blessing for you and him to be able to express your love for him before he was gone. May the memories be treasured blessings that you carry with you, loving and learning as you go through the next year.
Thoughts and prayers,
kari & kijsa

carole said...

Oh Pat:
My eyes are filled with tears. I think he missed your Mom too. Now theya re together; Happy.
Oh Honey, we are her for you.
Much love
carole

Joan said...

My deepest sympathies. I am so sorry for your loss.

Nancy said...

Pat, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my Dad rather suddenly in May 2006 and while I still miss him, the pain gets a little easier to bear each day. I too was "Daddy's Girl".

Hugs to you!

kecia said...

hello! i'm not sure how it is that i ended up at your blog - but wanted to say how sorry i am to hear that your precious dad passed away. i could feel the love you felt for him as you talked about him. you did a wonderful job jumping in like you did with the CPR- you did the best you could - they same time heals all wounds - you just need time----- in the meantime, it sounds as if you have some very precious memories of him to find comfort in. blessings in your grief