Well I thought my hiatus would be gone, but today has knocked me down and I am caught in a "Blue" mood. Not to go into many details, but these days and sometimes weeks happen and I only need to rest my weary spirit. I know others have it far worse, but on days like today, I want to scream "Why Me"?
On days like today, I am mixed with emotions as to why I had to go through 14 surgeries on top of being BP, which only made things worse. My future holds no cure for now and chronic pain is what I told I would have to live with forever. Tomorrow I see my pm doctor and he is really understanding since he's been a part of my treatment since coming off of life support.
I Want to craft so badly because that is the one thing, besides God that takes my mind off the ugly scars and pain. But as another blogger said, today I want to be a child of God and just stay in my cupcake pjs and let God take control of my spirit as He has done so many times.
I don't have a "Pitty Pot"---I like to refer is as my "Patty Pot", because just sitting and meditating on the gifts that God has given me, makes me remember how much I have been blessed. I could use my dad right now, because he was always understanding and hearing the Cajun word "Sha" would bring a smile to my face. So as Jesus would do when faced with tormoil, I am going to a quiet room and pray, not just for me, but for all who are ill and face more than I. Just say a little prayer for me----I know the power of prayer, been there and as they say, "Tomorrow is another day" Love and Hugs, Pat