Monday, February 11, 2008

Blue Monday

Well I thought my hiatus would be gone, but today has knocked me down and I am caught in a "Blue" mood. Not to go into many details, but these days and sometimes weeks happen and I only need to rest my weary spirit. I know others have it far worse, but on days like today, I want to scream "Why Me"?

On days like today, I am mixed with emotions as to why I had to go through 14 surgeries on top of being BP, which only made things worse. My future holds no cure for now and chronic pain is what I told I would have to live with forever. Tomorrow I see my pm doctor and he is really understanding since he's been a part of my treatment since coming off of life support.

I Want to craft so badly because that is the one thing, besides God that takes my mind off the ugly scars and pain. But as another blogger said, today I want to be a child of God and just stay in my cupcake pjs and let God take control of my spirit as He has done so many times.

I don't have a "Pitty Pot"---I like to refer is as my "Patty Pot", because just sitting and meditating on the gifts that God has given me, makes me remember how much I have been blessed. I could use my dad right now, because he was always understanding and hearing the Cajun word "Sha" would bring a smile to my face. So as Jesus would do when faced with tormoil, I am going to a quiet room and pray, not just for me, but for all who are ill and face more than I. Just say a little prayer for me----I know the power of prayer, been there and as they say, "Tomorrow is another day" Love and Hugs, Pat


SweetAnnee said...

HI honey.
I'm resting and praying too
You're in my prayers!!
lovingly, Deena

Shelley said...

Hello, my name is Shelley! I don't know if I have left you a comment before, but I just wanted to say, that God is so able to meet your every need.I don't know your need,but the Lord does. I am sending up a prayer for you and trusting God to meet your need.


Denise said...

Thanks for coming by my blog and know that you are in MY prayers.. I will put you on my list and I will call your name out to the Father daily...... I hate to hear that you are in such pain and I have no idea what that is like but I know a Man and His name is Jesus and He feels every hurt...... I know that you know that but it helps for the body of Christ to remind each other and lift each other up when we grow weary... that is what I am here for.......... I will pray.........

Phl 4:7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus


Nettie said...

Hi Mate,
All the best with your Dr's visits. Hope you're back on track very soon. You are always in my thoughts & prayers.

The Urban Chic said...

Thank you so much everyone. Today is better and I am hoping to find out if I am a diabetic. Saying prayers that diet and exercise are all I need. Love Ya'll, Pat