My doctor is setting up a referral to a neurosurgeon, but I am hoping to see the plastic surgeon first. My back is in horrible pain today, but some of it is due to the stress. My sisters came here when I wasn't here, but called me at the doctor's office to let me know that they are moving my parnoid, wife abuser and possibly child molester brother in here. I am going to do all I can to stop that even if it means bringing up the past when he did what he did to me, then knocked me down from behind with my 6 week old baby in my arms. Mom and dad should have gotten him help a long time ago. He has beaten every woman he was married to ---5 in all and I am deathly afraid of him. They told me to stop calling or contact them, yet they can't seem to stop and keep upsetting me. It's at the point where I am ready just to give up. I have never been a fighter so I don't know how to go about doing this.
Anyway, I'll probably be having my surgery this summer and I will let everyone know. If you don't see me here for a few days, it's because I am resting or at least trying to and I have some heavy praying to do. I know God is listening, but I need help more than ever. It's not easy praying for myself because it's always prayers for others, so this is new to me. Love and hugs, Pat