Just another day in my life!

Hi everyone. I said I would not post anything negative again, but getting it off my chest always helps me and this time it was the worst thing that could happen to me. As I said before I was to have another epidural on the 7Th and all went well. It was scary at first when I saw 7 different injections, so I asked the nurse if those were all for me---yes! Before he started, my doctor came in my little waiting area and I broke down and cried, so we talked and he decided it was time to increase my bipolar dosage. I was feeling so good until 4 days later when my 2 sisters came to pack up the youngest sister's things. My sister and I had a huge argument and it led up to her yelling at me to shut up, but not the words she used. You can push someone so far and they finally pushed me to a breaking point and I decided to stand up for myself, but she ended up throwing a glass of water in my face. Normally, I let her walk all over me and bow to her, but I took my bottle of water and threw it in her face. It made her so mad, I guess she wasn't expecting that from me, that she came up right to my face and I didn't flinch an inch, making her really mad and she punched me in the mouth and it knocked me to the floor, hitting my head on a cabinet handle then to the floor smack on my back. My younger sister saw everything, but told the police she didn't see anything---3 feet from me. I was bleeding every where and she wanted to wipe my mouth and I told her not to touch me. My sister who hit me, started laughing and making jokes about having the police take pictures and saying in a very ugly way "Oh she's hurt, call 911 and the police" all the while laughing at me and calling me crazy. It's one thing for other people to call bipolar people crazy, but when your family does it, it hurts deep. They all have stolen my trust and taken away what feelings I had for them. So now, I am removing myself from them completely after my children's urging. When I was out of their lives I was the happiest person you would ever want to know. I just happened to go to Goodwill this past weekend and found a book "What Becomes of the Brokenhearted". So I asked for their forgiveness for the things I told my younger sister, but now I want them out of my life. I got an email from the youngest, but I have put them in my spam folder. I emailed her back just as I did my other sister and told them if they have anything to say, email Al, as he is taking over power of attorney, so I don't have to be subject to getting assaulted again, then have them all lie about it. I am free and God is taking care of me. My children are very upset and said things I never thought they would say about the sister who hit me. One of them does not trust her anymore and that was very hard to hear, but it's the truth. I will not put myself in that situation Ever again. My epidural didn't work and I have to have an MRI to see if the bulging disk has herniated. I had to postpone my angiogram because I could not lay on my back, but I think I may be able to now, so I am calling to reschedule it today. I prayed a lot about filing charges and have decided that I will let God handle this for me, except for my brother. He has abused too many women to allow this to continue and I would feel worse if he ended up really hurting a woman or worse, killing them.

Other than that, life is good--God is great. I have my craft closet organized and have sent what I don't need to Al's to store for me.

Well I had to get up to take some meds, so the heating pad is just right. The swelling on my left side of the spine is still swollen, so I go from heat to ice. My doctor doesn't know about this assault and I know what he will tell me. I can't have another epidural for 3 months, so I will have to live with the pain for a while. I know many of you are sleeping, but I will still say Good Morning and hope your day will be as joyful as mine. Love and hugs, Pat

A Pink Warrior sent me the sweetest gift and I will take a picture and post it later. It brightened my day so much that I cried tears of joy instead of pain. Thank you so much.

Trying to stay busy!

Well I have been trying to stay busy for my own sanity, but it's not working too good. My sister said some terrible things to me and even though some may be true, it was a cold hearted way of saying them. Here are a few more of my treasure finds or make overs. I do need your prayers so much right now. I will be having another epidural on Wednesday, then an angiogram on the 13Th. I am praying that they find no blockages that will require a stint put in. I hope you all enjoyed seeing my neat things as much as I do. Love and Hugs and many Blessings, Pat

My re-vamped stool

My New craft stool.

I had a lot of pics to post, but not sure which folder I put them in. This is an old bar stool we found in the garage and was going to end up in the garbage. The lamp was a thrift find and I forgot to take a before shot, but take my word, it was dirty and rusty and I re-wired it for safety reason.

We still have another stool but the wooden seat is in bad shape, so Al is going to cut a new one and I will be painting it in black with a red print seat for my friend who has been helping me paint.

I started stripping an antique dressing table and I don't like the paint stripper Al brought to me, so will get what I normally use. I have many things to post, but it's slow to load, so will only do a few at a time. Crafting feels great again and I have a birdhouse that I was to put lace, scrapbook paper and some bling.

Prayers for my friends in Georgia and all the people affected by the floods. Such a sad thing. We also have been having rain almost every day and today was really bad.

Well I should be asleep and actually I did fall asleep at 6pm, but awoke around 10pm. I hope you all have a great weekend. Not sure if I made my 400th post yet, so will check and try to have a giveaway. Love, hugs, and blessings to all of you, Pat

What to do when your own brother assaults you?

This is not an easy subject, but my brother has been giving us problems and was stealing things from the garage and has taken all my dad's tools without permission. He came to get some flower pots that my sister said he could have but she asked me to go in and make sure that's all they took. He got upset and told me not to look at him with "those eyes"--whatever that means. Any way, he locked me in the dark garage and when I walked to the door and turned the deadbolt, he shoved the door into me, but I grabbed onto a bed frame to keep from falling. I was stuck in a corner and he grabbed me very hard by my arms and when I told him to let me go because he was hurting me, he shoved me to the floor atop a stack of boards. I had over 7 bruises on my back and a bad scratch on a piece of jagged wood. I couldn't move because I fell right on the bulging disk. He told the police that he never touched me but I will post the pictures when I transfer them from my laptop. I have his entire finger print bruises on both arms. I also hit my head on a ladder. I called 911 and he asked why I wanted to do that, because he had enough problems already. I know I am pouring my heart out in public, but there is more to this that I just can't divulge. I was taken away in an ambulance because I had to take a nitro. The doctor refused to Xray me and they gave me Nothing for my pain. This was Saturday and on Friday, I had to go in for an epidural that did not help at all. The physical and mental exhaustion is what caused me to become ill and has weakened my immune system, therefore, they have me resting for 3 to 4 days. I reported it to the police and filed a complaint--I do want to press charges, but not sure if I should. He is violent and we had a very expensive deadbolt put on my bedroom door. Brenda called him and told him he is not allowed on the property because I am paying rent, so he is very angry. I am just confused about what to do, but the female deputy said I should bring charges because abusive men are likely to do it again.
All opinions are welcome.
I did sit in the bed today and made a bible bookmark for our Church Bazaar and a pocket rosary.
I lost another 2lbs and not sure why. I will be making an appt. with my gastro doctor to have a second opinion and I see my pain management doctor on Thursday---he was very upset when he saw the bruises. To top things off, Al accidentally dropped a heavy board on the top of my foot and have a very bad contusion, so can barely walk on my left foot.
Sorry that I always have bad news and rarely anything good to say, but I am doing extra praying for my smile and happy attitude to return and I know it will. I am tough cookie and never give up, no matter what cross God sends me. My Faith is strong, so I know I will heal from all this drama. I have done so much for my brother and it's just hard to believe that he could be so cruel and then lie to the police, but I don't think he realized that the bruises would show. He told them I slipped and fell---his wife even told him not to lock me in, then she told the police that she accidentally locked me in, but yet I saw him when he slammed the door and put the key in.
Okay, enough of that. I have been re-doing some things that I found that were horrible and dirty and can't wait to show you next week.
My 60Th birthday came and went and was very uneventful.

Please keep my little grand niece in your prayers. Her swab test came back and she has swine flu, but a mild case, but they are watching her closely. This is Libby that I took care of when I lived in Gramercy. We had 5 people die in Louisiana just this week.
Well I need to get back to bed. It's easier at night because most people are asleep, so I have an easier time with the dial up. Blessings to all of you. Pat

A little hello to all my fellow bloggers

Hi everyone. Dial up is very slow, but I am at Al's today because of a trip to the ER. I have not been well and now they put me to bed for 3 days of complete rest. I have a viral infection brought on from exhaustion. I'm not sure how to do that, maybe someone could teach me. I will know on the 29Th if the cardiologist will do an angiogram. Will let you all know. The nitro seems to help and they have added another cholesterol med to my ever growing meds. I just want to flush them all down the toilet, but they are keeping me alive and no side effects. I keep losing weight and hope to take a picture soon, but right now I am not looking my best. If they don't figure out soon why the weight lost when I eat so much all day, I am considering going to MD Anderson in Houston.
My hair is down to my waist line now and I am hoping to get it cut soon and send it off to locks of love. I will be heading back home this afternoon and I do have some new photos to post.
I hope to visit all of you next week and catch up on the latest news.
There is no DSL in the country and I live 72 feet from the one that is available, so I am stuck with dial up until more neighbors want to use computers. But life is so simple there that it's hard to stay indoors. Yesterday, I saw the cutest little bluebirds and lots of beautiful butterflies. The heat wave is soon going to be gone and we are due for some cool weather.
Well I have things to pack---bringing more craft supplies with me, since I feel like crafting again, but reading will be all I'll do for 3 days.
Please keep me in your prayers---I need them so much. Love and hugs, Pat