Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Sorry about all the negativity on my blog

I realized how many people have stopped coming by and I believe it is due to all the negativity that I post, so only have one more to get out, then I am going to start a new blog after Christmas.
Brenda emailed Al and said to tell me to be out by the end of this month, so not sure what I will do. I have been down since the 28th and just don't know what to do. The only choice I have is to move back in with Al and that's not the place I want to be 7 days a week.
Her husband used to come to my apartment when I lived there and want to talk about things that were bothering him about her, so I would listen, then she would do the same thing. But now I wanted to talk to him, but he said he didn't want to get involved. Guess I should have told them the same thing. My heart is so broken by the one person I would have done anything for, short of breaking the 10 commandments and now she is treating me like the scum of the earth.

I know this will sound like I am bragging, but I am being humble by saying that I am a very giving, soft hearted person and if money were available, I would be helping more people. Al used to say that I was the one best friend every person would like to have. I met 2 ladies from our crafting group and if we lived closer, our friendship would be eternal.
I started making my Christmas cards and got 5 ready to put together, then picked up everything to pack up. I love crafting and it has been my outlet and therapy since 1982 when my doctor told me I needed a hobby to get my mind off of my pain and heartache and it worked.
I know that God is watching over me and will take care of my needs.

The only thing I wanted to know is Why Brenda turned her back on me. When my brother assaulted me, she told me to call the police, then 2 weeks later, she wouldn't talk to me. Maybe this is God's way of telling me I don't belong with them. I know through my faith that He has a reason for everything, so I need to put my Big Girl Panties on and pull myself up out of this darkness. Please pray for me, because I can't do it alone. I have never in my life felt so alone in all my life.
I'm sorry for laying all this on you, but somehow, it helps for a little while.
I hope I haven't run you all off and if I did, I am truly sorry and miss everyone that visits. Love, hugs, and Prayers for all those who are ill right now. Pat


Connie said...

Ooooh no, no, no, no, never too open for me, sugar, just some family issues happening with my daughter that has us "strung out"! LOL Anyway, you've not scared me away for sure. I truly do understand and am just sorry you are going through this. Also, we've been out of town for a week with the holidays and get the picture. Busy...!!!!!

The Urban Chic said...

Sweet Connie, thanks for understanding. I know what it means to have issues with daughters, because mine is not being supportive right now. I do hope that your issues will be resolved soon. I wish I could say I was busy for a reason, but packing and having to move back in with Al is not a happy time for me right now. Love, hugs, and Prayers, Pat