I realized how many people have stopped coming by and I believe it is due to all the negativity that I post, so only have one more to get out, then I am going to start a new blog after Christmas.
Brenda emailed Al and said to tell me to be out by the end of this month, so not sure what I will do. I have been down since the 28th and just don't know what to do. The only choice I have is to move back in with Al and that's not the place I want to be 7 days a week.
Her husband used to come to my apartment when I lived there and want to talk about things that were bothering him about her, so I would listen, then she would do the same thing. But now I wanted to talk to him, but he said he didn't want to get involved. Guess I should have told them the same thing. My heart is so broken by the one person I would have done anything for, short of breaking the 10 commandments and now she is treating me like the scum of the earth.
I know this will sound like I am bragging, but I am being humble by saying that I am a very giving, soft hearted person and if money were available, I would be helping more people. Al used to say that I was the one best friend every person would like to have. I met 2 ladies from our crafting group and if we lived closer, our friendship would be eternal.
I started making my Christmas cards and got 5 ready to put together, then picked up everything to pack up. I love crafting and it has been my outlet and therapy since 1982 when my doctor told me I needed a hobby to get my mind off of my pain and heartache and it worked.
I know that God is watching over me and will take care of my needs.
The only thing I wanted to know is Why Brenda turned her back on me. When my brother assaulted me, she told me to call the police, then 2 weeks later, she wouldn't talk to me. Maybe this is God's way of telling me I don't belong with them. I know through my faith that He has a reason for everything, so I need to put my Big Girl Panties on and pull myself up out of this darkness. Please pray for me, because I can't do it alone. I have never in my life felt so alone in all my life.
I'm sorry for laying all this on you, but somehow, it helps for a little while.
I hope I haven't run you all off and if I did, I am truly sorry and miss everyone that visits. Love, hugs, and Prayers for all those who are ill right now. Pat